it's been so very long since I've posted. I apologize for that. I've been busy...

Lots of things have been happening lately. I watched over the trailer they released for Water, and even though I was in it, just seeing the types of things I do in there makes me wonder how people see me. Do they find me disgusting? Sexy? Bold? Hmm..I'll read all the reviews we get and see 'cause I'm really curious.

I know I shouldn't really address private manners here, but since I can't seem to get it out any other way...Um, I won't use names here, but I think it's easy enough to guess...

Everytime I call, leave a message, email you, text you, anything, you never reply. I see you at rehearsal, but you don't even look at me. When I invited the guys out to dinner the other night, you didn't wanna go...
Am I doing something wrong? Are you...not interested anymore? Whatever it is, please tell me, because it hurts when you don't want to talk to me.

Is there someone else?


Maybe I'm looking too much into this, but I really don't know what else to do.

Hm...Shirota...do you want to go out for beers later?...my treat. You've been extremely...tolerant of me lately, and I want to thank you...


Anyways, that's the end of my update. Work, work and more work. Until later!

-Yuki

Wow, I've really neglected this journal..I guess I've been so busy updating my other one...

Life has been very well to me lately. I just got back from rehearsals, and my muscles everywhere are aching..But it's a good ache! (^-^) I've worked really hard in Tenimyu and it's really paying off!

Dream Live 4 is coming out March 29, or 30, and is running for a couple of days, so if any of you come to see it, that would be awesome! Some of the old casts showing up would be....well, awesome! (^______^) I hope I don't mess up my lines. Ueshima-san has been very liberal with what we can do, fitting in our own jokes and stuff. I'm really excited! You get to see the TakiYuki side of Oishi..*laugh*

Oh and Kouji, I might be a little late for our date tonight, but I'll definetly be there! Just please be patient, I'll definetly show.

Well, ja, minna!

One of the best things in life is being able to wake up next to someone you truly love...

I can only hope it happens more in the future...

Aaah! I'm becoming such a sap! (^-^) Look what you've done to me Kouji...thank you

we need to talk...NOW....

Good News, minna. I've fucked up royally.

I know, I know...Yukihiro isn't the type to swear, or be violent or anything, but I'm just so pissed at myself I can't stop it.

I don't feel like going into detail, so deal with being curious, because if you ask me, I won't talk.

And Yanagi..can you just shut up and stop digging your nose where it doesn't belong? I'm fed up of the hugs and 21 questions, alright? I don't need your stupid chocolate, or your comfort.

Kouji...do you want me to stop holding everything back? to quit saying I'm 'not ready'? To act like a man for once? I mean it...are you really ready for that? Because I'm only doing it for your sake, so if you want me to stop, I will. Just be prepared.


I'll probably regret saying all of these mean things once I've cooled down...so don't hold a grudge.

I've had sleepovers before...but this by far has been the best.

I have a problem sharing a bed with others..I can never get to sleep. I toss and turn and I'm always uncomfortable.
...
...
Kouji you are very comfy and that's possibly the best sleep I've had in a very long time.

I hope you can sleep over again sometime soon (^-^) I know you have school though, so I can wait for the weekend.

We still have that second date, ne? Think of something good to make me~ we can do that this weekend.

Well, call me or something to let me know what's best, ne?

Eh, I miss you already, is that stupid? (^-^;)

So much for the date...

I was stood up.

Thank you Yanagi-san and Shirota-san for keeping me company. The tea and cookies were very good.

I'm home now...my electricity is spastic. I'm just going to go straight to bed.

Good Night.




I hope you had fun with out me.

Ah, this entry will be more of a personal log for myself to read later. I know how forgetful I am...So I'm not expecting comments this time..but if you want to read, feel free to!

Eh, it's kind of embarrassing though...

I was kissed the other day..*grin* By A very special person. I'm sure they don't even realize that. I admit..it was a sneaky means of getting a kiss...but I enjoyed every second of it..

It was short, but it was really sweet...Ano...but I don't think they realized how much I enjoyed it... it might have been just a game to them. *sigh* that hurts when I say it, but it's probably the truth. I still enjoyed it though...if this is the closest I'll ever get to this person...I'll accept my fate as just a friend. I suppose it would be enough.

I've found my special person...it would really be painful to see their special someone be someone other than me...but I can't expect any more than what I already have...that would be asking for too much.

I'm not going to give up and stop trying though. I won't press them into anything, but I'll continue to try. There's always that one hope I can cling on to right?

It's been kind of...lonely around here...*tear* I miss people...

I figured this journal would be a good way of communicating with people while we were busy, but apparently that is not so! People are too busy for even this! Why? Do we..have no drive to speak to our friends? or are telephone calls just okay...?

I know I miss my friends,even outside of rehearsal..even if I get to see them everyday..I still miss them~

Shinpei! Aibacchi! Setomaru! Kuji! Tomo! Kei-chan! Doori~~~~~!!! where are you! (;o;)

I'm eating alone again tonight...My food's starting to taste like cardboard..Maybe it's because I'm still sick? I think it's because no one's been asking me out anymore...

Setomaru? wanna go out for dinner sometime? Aibacchi? anyone?

I know I can be a bit annoying, but please look past that! I'm trying...

If my cellphone's off, don't be afraid to email me!..I don't bite...

Already the fourth day of the New year and I've caught a cold! I bet it was Shinpei who gave it to me.(;-;) Now I have this painful rasp to my voice...I've been drinking a lot of fluids and taking medicine to get better though!

Gomen, if I tranfer this cold to you...I promise if I make you sick I'll buy your medicine and take care of you~...I'll even make you soup~

Saa, sometimes I feel like Oishi-mama...I want to take care of everyone and make everyone happy~...

I hope everyone's in good spirits! The snow's so nice out...

Ii Tenshon Da! ...Eiji...

Ah...Oishi's such a fun person...I'll try hard to put more energy into this role to make the perfect Oishi!

Ja~ Mata ato de~!

Hey, Minna! I finally made one!

Aaah..so trendy, Yukihiro! Can't I be original? Some day...(^-^) But for now I'll be where my friends are!

Setomaru! I'll friend youuuu~! It's too bad Shinpei or Tomo, or Kei-chan haven't joined yet...I feel so lonely!

Well, I suppose this is good enough for a first post...I'll try to keep this up regularly! I'll also try and get the rest of our new cast to join~

Seigakuuuuu fight-o!